10. RECOGNIZING HER SACRIFICE - October 2015 I couldn't stand her giving other guys a better deal than me. Maybe she likes a guy. She gives him free sex, gifts. I give her money, and she turns around and buys something for the guy. So I got jealous. I said I am not doing it. "You never did that stuff for me. You never gave me anything." She said "It’s not like I never did shit for you. I did a lot for you." What did you ever give me? Mandi: What do you mean what did I ever give you? What did you ever give me? Mandi: You really don’t know? No. Mandi: My body. I sacrificed my body. Her tone was not fucking around, like a terminal cancer patient in his last month. You would have thought I left her crippled. There had to be some counter-argument, like she liked her job. She shot it down. That first night I had sex with her, I made a pledge to never let on I didn't like it. It sounded like she was saying, she made that same pledge. I told her I’m not a sexually oriented person. I don't value sex. She said she is the same way. Sometimes when I got jealous she would say "Don’t mind-fuck yourself. I have sex with you more than I have sex with my boyfriend." Because she needed the money. And that was just life. Doesn't mean she wasn’t scarred by it.