changed. I do not give a fuck about the slingshot at Magical Midway. You cannot take it to the bank. Everywhere we went together, people stared at us. She was young, and I was old. I was dark and she was light, obviously I wasn’t her relative. One day she refused to fuck me until I bought her nitrous oxide. So we walk into Climax smoke shop on East Colonial, and everybody looked at us. She looked at me and said "The reason you have so many wrinkles is because you're always angry." It's true, I did not like her doing nitrous. She said a black Hummer (Escalade?) was stalking her over at Chris’s house. One day she came over to see me, to buy her mom groceries. As soon as she arrived, the crying pimp who had gone back to Miami, started blowing up her phone in a rage. The next week she found a satellite tracker hidden in her car trunk. She was asking if I put it there. Most girls would call the police if they found a satellite tracker in their trunk. I thought it could have been Chris. Because Chris and his friends all work in car audio and as mechanics. The pimp was a hustler, who could not connect two wires together. But probably it was the pimp who put the satellite tracker in her car, and that is why he lit up her phone when he saw her arrive at my house. He knew she would walk out with money while his kid ate foodstamp Ramen in Miami. He told her “you got a new nigga.” She said he might drive up and kill her any place any minute, and she said there was nothing she could do about it. She went home to Chris house. Then she said she found a room she could rent, but she needed to fuck me twice to make a deposit. So I fucked her and gave her the money. This was right around Thanksgiving. I suspected it was at Chris house, but she said it was in an adjacent neighborhood, at her best friend Jenna's house from high school with her boyfriend the mayor’s son. There was no justifiable reason for us to continue our relationship at this point. But one day after Thanksgiving she begged and begged me to meet her at South Orange and Delaney to lend her $160 and I did. When I noticed the vet bill from her dog, she grabbed it away from me and we got into an argument. I knew it must have Chris' address on it. (move up to accurate earlier timeline?) I had been searching for months for a way to point out to Mandi that our relationship was not the best thing. But without being so harsh that she would take it too personally or stop talking to me. I wanted a non-sexual relationship. Or at least that is what I wanted until she figured out that is what I wanted, and made quick work of it by crying on the phone and then showing up in short shorts. So I finally came up with the word "weird." I said "Our relationship is weird." Mandi had a fit, and just about burst into tears. She said "It's not weird, I'm your ho." She was so angry that I was going to cut her off. I wanted to tell her she was "naive" but there was no equivalent word that would be more familiar to her. From that point I really tried to just turn off my phone when she texted me in some kind of distress. I went into Rachel's at lunch to find a new ho. There was a little Jewish guy there with the gayest mohawk in human history. The big guy with him, whom I later learned was James Jay Arnold, called him "Chris." Disgusting. I texted her, and said I just saw your broke gay boyfriend at Rachel’s, eating the buffet like a starving Cambodian. She worried I had gone by her high-school friends house the previous night and saw she wasn’t living there. So she told me she spent the night in the McDonald’s parking lot and just woke up. The next time I saw her was her Dad's birthday. She dropped Chris and his friends off at Publix on South Orange, and met me across the street in the SoDo Target parking garage while they shopped. She thought she was going to have to give me a blowjob to buy her dad a new wrench set. But you can't take sodomy to the bank. So I just gave her the money. Then I fucked her again around Christmas, because she was desperate to buy a gift card for every member of her Dad's step-family. And I fucked her once or twice in between at her mom's house, while she told her mom and little brother to wait outside. I was up to near 50. I was jealous of Chris, and refused to pay his mortgage. I stopped answering her texts altogether, and finally she 1-29