enough college girls. Mandi told me she wanted to be a waitress at a sports bar. I said I have been telling you for years that is a good temporary job. It's not something for the long term. But don’t you want to use the money to go to school and become a welder? She doesn't want to be a welder any more. I thought some other girl in the jail must have told her this, that it is cool to be a waitress at Twin Peaks. So Mandi is just repeating what some older girl said. Why do they have to tell crazy shit to my angel baby? But now I realize it is coming from Mandi, she really does want to be a waitress all of a sudden. And will almost certainly never go back. Wanting to be a welder was like some cool autistic tomboy thing. Like a girl from Discovery Channel with a lot of tattoos. Now she is just an ordinary chubby Jewish girl with health problems, trapped inside the twisted fantasy of a bunch of degenerate Seminole County hicks. Though she is still easy, and a sucker for whiny sociopaths. Maybe that will go away. I thought Mandi's mind had matured to the point where she could have testified in her own defense at trial. But the jury should also be aware the person talking to them, was far different and suddenly more intellectually developed than the child she had been three years earlier. But there was no way her control-freak lawyers were going to put a person on the stand whom the jail doctor put on four different psychotropic drugs to keep from crying and screaming all day, who gained 100 pounds and developed major health problems during her three years in jail, and whom they basically saw as drooling on herself. IV-67